The Fool

The Fool

The definition of a fool

is

one who continues to make the same mistakes

over

and

over

and

over

again.

I am such a person.

It causes me great consternation,

but I plow on

convinced somehow

that it’s all unrecognized

genius.

I’d commit suicide if I wasn’t so

curious about what crap

is going to

crop up

next.

But America is trying to kill me

so I don’t need to commit suicide.

That job has already been assigned

and the hit is being carried out

as we speak

here

tonight.

I keep hoping for an opening

though I can see

as clear as a June morning

on a Sierra lake

that there is no door

no window

no gate

into

the open.

There is a world that lives

in my mind

that will always be

an apparition

hovering in the distance.

I flail against the wall

like a drowning person

beating my fists

till they bleed

until finally I am spent

husked out of my shell

and cast against the stones.

There,

I’ve gone and done it

again.